Things will be much easier once my living situation improves.

This is kind of a big piece. I don’t even remember how many medications I’ve tried, enough that both psych docs consider it treatment-resistant. At the same time, I’ve got plenty to be depressed about. So it’s been a string of “really can’t tell if this is working,” with one very clear exception that unfortunately came with untenable side effects.

Best of luck moving forward, shit’s hard. If nothing else, remember that you’re not alone.